I dont know anymore

You know when you get that feeling that you're starting off in the right direction... but there seems to be lots of stuff pulling you down... and most of the time you dont know exactly what is doing it... Well the feeling seems to be avoidible in a health manner... I have found that if you not exactly deal with the manner or the problems... you focus on the things that are keeping your life postive and health... I want to set my life up that when i have responsibilities such as my own kidds or a wife... i can be the best i can be for them... i want to be able to do things now that will have a postive effect on the people i will come to love in the future.... I'm not saying that doing that should now ignore people that you love... but you should watch what you fill your life with... some-times i cant stand all the so say fun-things that people say helps the pathitic life... i know many people that i used to be really close to that have thrown away there morals and there friendship for so say fun that has a high chance of hurting them in the future... i like to call it stupidness...they dont think about the theory that most people have found to be true... action and reaction.... i think all the time that i want to distance myself from many of the people that are bring me down... well i'm getting all riled up and i'm done with it all....